Tori Spelling is finding healing as a contestant on Dancing With the Stars . During the Tuesday, September 17, season 33 premiere , Spelling, 51, told her partner, Pasha Pashkov , that she passed up the opportunity to appear on the reality competition series every year for the past 32 seasons. When asked what was different this time around, Spelling referenced her and Dean McDermott ’s divorce.
“[Turning] 50 hit, and my life exploded. I’m going through a really public divorce,” the Beverly Hills, 90210 alum explained. “I’m really trying to find myself again.
” Spelling filed for divorce from McDermott, 57, in March after nearly 18 years of marriage, citing irreconcilable differences. “Everything I thought I was has been burned to the ground,” she told cameras of the split. When tasked with choosing her personal anthem to dance to during the premiere episode, Spelling selected “Trustfall” by P!nk , saying, “If I am gonna fall, imma catch myself cause imma trust me.
” The actress then gave it her all during her and Pashkov’s Foxtrot. Even though the judges had some feedback — Derek Hough called the performance “a little stiff” while Bruno Tonioli told Spelling she has “a lot of work to do” — Spelling was all smiles talking to cohost Julianne Hough after the dance. “I found her! It only took me 51 years,” Spelling said of reconnecting with herself while pumping her fist triumphantly.
She then jumped up and down excitedly, noting that app.