The sheer force of the erection allows me to inhabit this dominant, commanding persona in bed Last autumn, my girlfriend, Clara, discovered a packet of Viagra in my washbag. I hadn’t told her I was taking the pills, and she was devastated – it made her question whether I’m really attracted to her. But that’s not the issue at all.
Clara is the most beautiful and intellectually curious person I’ve ever known. The problem is that my body sometimes isn’t in sync with my mind. I can be really turned on, but somehow lose my erection midway through sex.
I am able to get an erection without Viagra, but a pill makes the difference between being 90% hard, and 100%. I’ve had performance problems before, and they often strike when I feel most attracted to a woman. In my early 20s, I came back from a club with a girl, and I couldn’t get hard at all.
I couldn’t believe I had managed to go home with this gorgeous woman, and that nervousness meant my body wouldn’t do what it was told. To avoid that kind of embarrassment again, I bought some Viagra online. All I had to do was fill out a tick-box questionnaire, which apparently goes to an “online doctor”.
There wasn’t even age verification. I kept the pills a secret from Clara because I find it difficult to let people in. I worried other men in their 20s wouldn’t need Viagra, but I couldn’t ask any men in my life, because I struggle with male friendship.
Since childhood, I’ve kept a close watch on my mannerisms,.