Nick Knowles has opened up about a devastating realisation he had when his father sadly died. The Strictly Come Dancing star, 61, revealed the heartbreaking story to Death: A Changing Industry , a podcast that delves into the funeral industry and the psychological impact of bereavement. Nick explained that he was "constantly being accused" of being old-fashioned, something he said comes from his dad.
However, he went on to say that he found it "incredibly difficult" when his dad became "emotional" after suffering a stroke. He said: "They all come from my dad and then suddenly with the stroke, he was very emotional and would cry. And I found that incredibly difficult so I didn't visit him when he was in the care home as much as I should've done in the last year of his life.
"And then he passed away and I had this moment of realisation that I'd let him down at the most difficult time in his life by not being able to handle it. So that took me a long time and then I was very upset." He continued: "Every time I thought of him, it made me really upset and about three months in, I remember thinking to myself, 'This is just awful'.
"You know, I love my dad; I enjoyed his company; we had great times together and every time I think of him, it makes me sad. I've got to switch this around because I wanna think of him and smile." Nick said he wanted to think of his dad and remember the "good times", as well as the "amazing" and "fun" things from their lives together, so he made a "consci.