Hockey season isn’t the same for Meredith Gaudreau after the tragic death of late husband Johnny Gaudreau . “It’s been really hard watching hockey start up and seeing how different my life is now,” Meredith wrote via Instagram on Friday, September 20, alongside an old video interview featuring Johnny. “My whole life was taking care of John and our kids.

It’s all I ever wanted.” The couple shared daughter Noa, 23 months, and son Johnny, 6 months. Meredith revealed during Johnny’s recent memorial service that she is currently expecting baby No.

3 . In her post, Meredith added the only bright side is that she gets to see her late husband be honored every day by his friend and teammate Sean Monahan . Johnny and Monahan, 29, played for the Calgary Flames together.

Johnny later joined the Columbus Blue Jackets. The pair were going to be reunited this year after Monahan signed with the Blue Jackets during the offseason. “But watching Sean wear CBJ is something I know John always always wanted,” she continued.

“Noa loves cheering for Uncle Sean too. Wishing 23 a good training camp and can’t wait to cheer you on 💙.” Earlier on Friday, Meredith opened up about how she was having a “hard time” ahead of Noa’s upcoming 2nd birthday.

“She loves watching videos of daddy before bed especially her requests for ‘daddy hockey’ which led me to these videos,” she captioned another interview Johnny did talking about his family. “She loves watching him p.