LOTTIE TOMLINSON: After I lost my mum and then my little sister, I was so fearful of losing my life too, I couldn't leave the house...
By Lottie Tomlinson Published: 02:07, 9 August 2024 | Updated: 02:07, 9 August 2024 e-mail View comments Sometimes I gaze at my two‐year-old son with his big, blue eyes and soft, blond hair and one thought in particular overwhelms me. Just how much my wonderful mum would have adored him. He's so amazing, so funny, so gorgeous and, knowing how much Mum loved babies and children – she was a midwife who had seven of her own – I just know she would have gone crazy for him.
It's a realisation that stops me in my tracks every single time. Sadly, my mum, Johannah, never got to meet her first grandson. She died in December 2016 from leukaemia when I was only 18.
I lost the one person who loved me unconditionally and had always given me reassurance and support. The hardest part of becoming a mother myself has been not having my own around to witness it. When things went wrong in labour , I cried out to Mum, asking her to help me.
After my son was finally born, the pain of knowing she would never hold him brought fresh agony. Social media star Lottie Tomlinson lost her mum Johannah to leukaemia in 2016 when she was 18 Lottie believes her mum 'would have adored' her two-year-old son Lucky And whenever I hit challenges – such as breastfeeding struggles – I didn't want to ask anyone else for help. If I couldn't ask her, I told myself, I would jus.