Kristin Cavallari is opening up about the unexpected emotional reaction she had to her son Camden getting tackled hard in his football game. “This was not my intention, by the way, to cry. I thought I’d give everyone a life update.

I thought I had worked through all of this,” Cavallari, 37, began on the Tuesday, September 17, episode of her “ Let’s Be Honest ” podcast. “My oldest, Camden, has been playing football for middle school — tackle football. It’s been so emotional.

I actually cried before Camden’s first game. I was like this, I was holding back tears. I was like, ‘I just don’t want you to get hurt.

'” Recalling that Camden, 12, told her that he’s “not going to get hurt” because he’s “got all these pads, so even if I get hit, I’m gonna be okay,” the Laguna Beach alum went on to tell listeners that she thought it was “so sweet” that Camden was “trying so hard to reassure” her that she had nothing to worry about. She continued, “And then the third game, he got hit and he went flying. And he fell hard.

And I just knew as a mom how scared he was after that first hit. And that’s what f—- me up more. Thinking of him being scared out there, it just wrecks me.

That was honestly one of the hardest things I’ve had to sit through.” While the Uncommon James founder said she thinks “football and all these sports are really good for these boys in so many ways,” she admitted through tears, “I just don’t know how to do .