Jennifer Lopez ’s split from Ben Affleck was “probably the hardest time” of her life, she says. The pop icon has opened up for the first time about her high-profile divorce from the Justice League actor in an interview with comedian Nikki Glaser for Interview . She said that even though the breakup left her reeling, she’s moving forward and focused on developing the best possible relationship with herself.

Jennifer Lopez felt she’d figured things out before Ben Affleck divorce Lopez didn’t address the end of her marriage to Affleck directly in her conversation with Glaser. (She filed for divorce in August, two years after they tied the knot.) But she spoke candidly about her long journey to self-acceptance.

“You start slowly chipping away at different things – ‘This is not right and this is not right’ – and learning how to be on your own, and you start putting the pieces together and then you think, ‘Oh, I did it! I’ve got it!’” she said. Earlier this year, Lopez released the album This Is Me ..

. Now , along with an accompanying film inspired by her romance with Affleck. At the time, she thought it was the culmination of her journey to figuring herself out.

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I felt like, whoa, I got here. I’m good,” she said. “I did all the work and look at where I am, and then it was like my whole f***ing world exploded.

” Lopez says learning is a ‘lifelong process’ While Lopez wasn’t expecting her tumultuous year, she .