"This is going to be the worst run I've ever done. Worse than when I came last in my high school gym class's one mile race. Less publicly humiliating, sure, but somehow slightly more crushing.

" These were the thoughts that repeated in my mind when I took the first few strides of what I hoped would be a two-mile run. It was my first time lacing up my running shoes after taking nearly four years off running, during which time I'd had two children. In an attempt to quell my nerves, I reassured myself that all I had to do was keep going at my current pace, which resembled a slow-motion jog, until my kids woke up from their naps.

I'd signed up to complete 41 miles in one month to celebrate the Nike Pegasus ($140) turning 41 years old, and every step was bringing me closer to this goal. Four years ago, this feat would have been a breeze for me. Although I'd avoided running in high school, in college I found my footing when my sister encouraged me to train for a 10K race with her.

After that, running became not only my favorite exercise but an important part of my social life. From running half-marathons in New Zealand and Maui with my sister to completing the LA marathon with my husband, I always had a race on the horizon. In March 2020, I was preparing for a half-marathon.

On Mar. 8, I clocked 11 miles at a 9-minute, 17-second mile pace — my fastest pace yet. But soon after the race was canceled due to the COVID-19 pandemic , and I stopped running.

Then I entered my mom era, hav.