Halsey is sharing her journey with motherhood. In the latest episode of the SHE MD podcast , hosted by Dr. Thais Aliabadi and Mary Alice Haney, the 29-year-old "Lucky" songstress reveals she suffered two miscarriages in the same year.
"I miscarried during a concert. I started miscarrying before the show ..
. And I was in a really tough position because it was really early on in my career and there was a lot attached to the show," she explains. "There was a corporate partner, there was a greater media entity partner, but more importantly than that to me, there were a thousand kids who waited all day long to get into this show and see me.
" Halsey revealed that she put on an adult diaper and performed the 45-minute set while she was actively miscarrying. After "bleeding for hours" after the show, the "Bad at Love" singer reveals that she was left with more questions than answers about miscarrying at a time when she should be able to have successful pregnancies. And miscarried again.
"I had no idea what to do. So that was one miscarriage," she said. "I had two within the same year.
I remember thinking to myself, 'I'm 20 years old. I should be able to carry a baby.' I didn't want to be pregnant.
I was way involved in my career. So I had a lot of complex feelings of relief, but also confusion, but also guilt, and also grief. And then at the same time, I had a big burning question in my mind, which is, 'Something must be wrong with me, because of all the times in my life where I shou.