Only a day before her inaugural season of The Golden Bachelorette premieres, leading lady Joan Vassos has revealed that her late husband was on her mind a lot while dating on the show. Joan's season of the ABC spin-off will see 24 men compete for her love , including Bachelor alum Kelsey Anderson ’s dad, Mark Anderson . Now, she's confessed it felt like she was cheating on her late husband John the whole time.

Theresa Nist looks younger than ever as she enjoys single life after divorce Golden Bachelorette suitors asked about sleeing arangements in strange twist The 61-year-old — whose husband of 32 years passed away of pancreatic cancer in early 2021 — told People how she naviagtes being a widow. "My husband passed away during COVID and I really didn't embrace the whole mourning thing," she said. "I was in charge of being strong.

I just buckled down and ignored it." Sign up to The Bachelor newsletter HERE for the latest news and updates The mother-of-four tried attending group therapy but struggled due to the pandemic. When she found herself catching feelings for other men on the show, she knew she "had to face it.

" She said of her grief: "It was in my face that I was feeling really guilty, honestly, about having feelings for somebody else. I almost felt like I was cheating on John, which is crazy because he's passed away." Prior to his death, John told Joan that he didn't want her "to be alone" and told her to find love again one day.

"I want you to find somebody. You .