“During that period, not a single day was good. Whenever the illness relapsed, I would have suicidal thoughts, and my parents had no choice but to restrain me with ropes. .
.. Each time I had an episode and lost control, I would deeply regret it once I came to my senses.
Then another episode would occur, followed by more regret. ..
. This torment persisted for 12 years,” said Kathy Ma, a Chinese-American who has lived in San Francisco for over 30 years, recalling the 12 long years of being tormented by severe depression. Ma is a devoted woman.
Shortly after immigrating to the United States with her parents at 23, she insisted on returning to China to marry her boyfriend of four years, despite her parents’ objections. However, she did not expect that, during the year-long wait for her husband’s U.S.
visa, he would be unfaithful. When Ma was five months pregnant, he asked for a divorce. After the divorce, Ma was heartbroken and filled with resentment toward her ex-husband, and even considered aborting the baby.
However, the doctor warned that an abortion at that stage would be very dangerous. A pastor also advised her that, as a Christian, she should not have an abortion. “At that moment, I felt myself slowly rising and sitting up.
However, when I looked back and saw my body still lying on the hospital bed, I thought to myself that I could not die—I had just given birth and couldn’t leave my baby. With that determination, I slowly lay back down, reentered my body, a.